Monday, September 21, 2009
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Those smiles werent for real. All the moments which
actually cramped up my happiness. It was as fast as the
wind. In just a snap, everything was over. & here i'm sitting
down with the lost of my smiles. Will you be my smile?
Some times aren't really fair. I must really say. God, you're
not being fair. You're not giving happiness to one who deserves
it. But giving everyone who doesn't deserve them. I would wanna
include myself in. I only see my smiles with certain people. But not
everyone. & I feel horrible when i do it. There's noone i can actually
talk my heart out. To the closest friend of mine too. I feel totally ashamed.
& Rarely wanna share my problems out. As they see me as the Happy Go Lucky type!
I can't face reality ! & Its so hurting sometimes. I want to cry out. All alone, just
give me a night where i can be alone. With musics on. & I would wanna lie down.
& Slowly be gone. I really wishhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
Honestly, i wanna study. I want good grades.
Tell me who doesnt? But i take the effort & time
to take out my Books to study. But when i do that,
Nothing goes up to my head. God, why arent you being
fair to me?? I tried and tried.
;Everytime i try, i keep failing.
Tell me when will i succeed.
Boy, i just want you for myself.
Would i?
